As a guy, I find the battle with sexual sin to be a gripping and tiring one. Day after day I’m exhausted by my own propensity for lust, my own fleshly desire to sleep with every attractive girl I see. It’s tiring. It’s wearisome. It’s exhausting.
But I wonder if the reason I’m so worn out by this battle is that I’m fighting for all the wrong reasons? I’m fighting because I want to be victorious in this area of my life. I’m fighting because if I give up, I could lose my job. I’m fighting because giving up could destroy my relationship with my future wife.
But what if I stopped fighting for all these reasons? They’re noble, but are they all really worth it?
King David wrote in Psalm 51, after his sin with Bathsheba, “Restore to me the joy of your salvation, and uphold me with a willing spirit.”
Fighting isn’t easy. Fighting against something with nothing compelling to fight for is even harder. But when I remind myself that my God loves me, that he saves me, that he destroyed death for me, that all this “demands my soul, my life, my all,” then I cannot but continue to fight, because the weight of the battle is lifted from my heart, replaced by the depth of his mercy.
Gaining victory over sin in our lives requires constant reminders of the power of the Gospel. It requires resting in the shadow of Christ’s cross.